Tuesday, September 11, 2012

The life of a Mommy

There are some things you don't realize that will happen when you become a mommy. Things that you may have taken for granted in the past. One of those things is being secluded. I've recently started to feel this way again. I did at the beginning of mommyhood and I feel that way yet again.

Ezra is one that has to sleep in his crib for naps. He can't nap on the go anymore, and really hasn't since he was about 2 months old. This makes me have to carefully plan every day around his nap schedule, and around his eating schedule. The two don't coincide, leaving me a small window to actually leave the house.

Even when I do leave the house, it's for a quick trip to the grocery store for more formula or a quick trip to church. Even thinking about taking Ezra to a dr's appointment stresses me out.

I never realized how much I'd crave adult interaction and adult conversation. Maybe I realize this more this week because as the school year continues along, my friend that had every day off in the summer is busy teaching. I have friends that work nights and sleep during the days and friends that work. It's not an easy thing to not get to see your friends anymore.

I enjoy my time at home with Ezra, but it does get "boring" at times. There are only so many times I can walk around the house maneuvering his musical walker, only so many miles I can walk, only so many books we can read, etc. Yes, I do feel like a bad mommy by saying all this, especially while I know so many mommy's who wish they could stay home. Maybe it will get easier as Ezra grows older (although I need to have a job by then), and it has gotten easier as Ezra has learned how to play by himself, but it doesn't make me need some girl time any less. I am however thankful that I've witnessed every single milestone of Ezra's life thus far. I would be incredibly sad if I missed out any of those.

Mommy's to be, enjoy your time to get out, to see friends, and to be "free" while you can, it'll all change the minute you give birth!

Thursday, September 6, 2012

9 Months

Ezra, you're 9 months old now. I don't know where the time went, but it has gone by way to quickly! You're such a joy to be around, usually. You've started laughing for absolutely no reason, other than something must be funny for you. You're getting closer and closer to walking, although still hate to let go to mommy and daddy's hands. You cruise like you're in a hurry to get everywhere fast. You eat everything in sight, even if it's not food. You really keep me on my toes with my cleaning! You still fight sleep with every bone in your body. I don't know how you aren't exhausted every day, I am! You've started sucking your thumb, which drives me insane, but you also have started cuddling more, which melts my heart. You get so excited when daddy comes home from work, crawling as fast as you can to get to him. You jabber nonstop, say momma when you're crying and whining, but nothing else yet. You have learned to sign milk, although you've become stubborn and don't like to do it anymore.

While I hate watching you grow up so fast, I love it just the same. You are your own little boy, living life just as you want to!